Well, wouldn't you know it. I go back to BSF and right away the enemy starts getting all in my face! Two friends are into Tarot card reading! Yikes - I'm so bothered by this and not knowing what in the world to do! Get in their faces? Gently enter into spiritual conversations? Even now I'm also reading a book about discipleship this morning I read that our goal is to be more like Jesus and even though Jesus displayed anger - it was righteous and not judgemental anger, in our humanness it is almost impossible for us to have righteous anger.....it is so difficult in my flesh to not be judgemental! I know I'm right and I forget to love first. Wow. God has such perfect timing!

I'm praying and reading and asking God to give me the words, fortunately Janet and I are of the same mind on this so Saturday when we all get together for my birthday we'll approach it in God's will. I marvel at the timing.

Dilemma number two - seminar at church that I wasn't on the e mails until this week - Friday and Saturday. Friday night Dodger/Giants tickets with Tyler and the boys.....Saturday Rotary meet up for party at our house in October. hmmmmm my heart wants badly to go to the seminar BUT I was out of the loop for the last few months....bringing up the question of submission to husband vs spiritual growth....I'm not liking this dilemma.

Then there's even the business - but that seems minor compared to the spiritual issues! Isn't that funny, the financial and business issues were foremost in my mind last week - now it's these more spiritual - human issues. God is good. He puts it all back in perspective. I get all wrapped up in the things that will not last until He brings it to my attention that there are things far more important!

I'm writing this from a new laptop! It belongs to the office and is really to allow me to do payroll and other things when I'm traveling (like to Chicago) but it's great to be able to be in bed - Doug watching the Dodgers and me on the computer!!!

Anyway - praying for wisdom - we have new ideas to solve some of the issues at work, just want confirmation that it's in line with God's will. I can have great ideas but they can so clearly (in hindsight) be outside of His will! Praying, reading, waiting! I love so much how God works, letting us be part of His plan!

Just finished a great book, Chuck Smith's autobiography - so wonderful to read how God's plan unfolded in his life! Encouraging to see failures used by God - just as I've seen Him use failures in my own life. Sometimes I'm frustrated by the reality that I can't be in fulltime ministry - but then I'm brought back to the reality that my life can be a ministry.

What a great birthday it's been such a surprise in so many ways! God is indeed good!

Work is getting crazier, financially! I need wisdom so badly right now - in my quiet time God seems to be telling me to be patient - every passage I read I seem to sum up with wait - be patient - be true in my motives.

Thankful Rob is doing well so far - thankful for a wonderful daughter in law who turns 24 tomorrow! LOVE KIRRA SUE SUTTON! Thankful for three great sons and a wonderful husband. So many blessings to balance the many stresses. God is indeed good in the midst of all!

But I still never seem to have enough time - to write to read to sew .....