The weekend over, my first BSF leaders meeting in a couple of years - like old shoes so comfortable!! Doing homiletics last week - brought me to tears, I've missed that depth of study! God providing time without pressure or stress to get my lesson done early and my homiletics done. Church last night with such wonderful worship time...God is so good.

Doug's dad is dying and I'm so sad, so sad that he's been ill and distant for the past couple of years, so sad that I don't think he knows Jesus even though the gospel has been presented so many times. So sad that this phase of life is ending. I love Doug's dad, he was my dad the past 19 years, since my own father died. He was always so willing to do little projects for me (and some not so little ones) so willing to hang out with the boys. He loved his grandchildren. It makes me cry everytime I think about him being gone, even though he's been going for awhile, at Christmas he occasionally had that twinkle in his eye that was so him.

Therapist tomorrow with Parker - praying it goes well - praying he realizes how much I love him - even though he's always saying I don't!!! He's doing so well these days, I want so much the very best for him, but more than anything I want him to have a personal relationship with Jesus...I want him to choose that life, I want him to have fun with other believers. I know my own life took many turns, and in so many ways he's so much like me...I know it will be on his terms and his time. In the meantime I pray. I pray for a Godly wife, for friends who love the Lord, for a good relationship with his brothers, a career he enjoys...he so has my dad's sense of humor - I see it so often. Especially now that he's back to his old self. I pray for the anxiety to subside, for him to get that confidence back - the sadness and depression to go away...which in my mind is just letting Jesus in!!!